the me no one sees...

i hide it well. its all i have ever done. i think 90% of the reason for that is for ME. if i stay in bed i am sicker mentally. if i am in pajamas all day i feel like i am giving up in a way...not fighting. not showing my husband and my babies that they are WORTH fighting for. that our lives will not be defined by Lymes. that my deterioration will not be our future. there is so much more to SEE, so much to look forward to, to bask in. to live out what has been given to us.